I am at a point in my life right now which I spend in heavy reflection. When I consider all of the things I have done; those decisions I find to be accomplishments adn those I find to be made wrong, I consider what I will be doing in the future that is turning out to be nearer than I thought.
Now that it is June, exams are tiptoeing near with an ominous tone. I do think I am prepared, but it is next year that worries me. This year I have spent doing schoolwork, playing year-round sports and keeping/finding a job. It just gets to be overwhelming after a year adn I don't know if I want to repeat my busy routine next year. The more I think about my productivity and time management, I am starting to reconsider homeschooling.
There are pros and cons to both sides of the argument. After talking with my mom about this idea of mine, it has been established that working in a class with split streams is limiting. If I stayed home, I could work at a pace I feel is right for me under a tailor made schedule. I would have time to do the things I love, like art an d biking and have it as part of a class, like art or phys ed. When I consider all the time I would have to work with our horses and maybe get a puppy (that I will; no matter the sex or breed, call Sam), I think home based education would be a great choice. I could even work part time and save for post secondary; but that's where issues arise.
Not all homeschool courses are eligible for the same scholarship opportunities as those which are eligible if you are educated in a public school, if that makes any sense. This means that I would be missing out on financial help that I am relying on for further education. I have also heard that some topics that should be stressed in public schools can be less stressed in homeschool curriculums. I could be working so hard and be convinced that I am prepared, then go to university without the preparation I thought I had.
Either way it feels like a gamble with my future. I don't know what to do. I don't like to ask friends about their opinions because I know any suggestions would be biased since there is some kind of emotional attatchment. Right now it is looking like the pros are outweighing the cons, but I suppose we will have to see in time. I don't want to miss out on the high school experience, but missing out on that means I would be less pressured to party and make risky decisions; another pro. What about my friends? Does homeschool mean less time spent with them, or less of a friendship with them?
Some people just seem to make these decisions in the snap of a finger, but I can't do that. I'll have to weigh every challenge and every oppportunity that school and homeschool offers. It's so difficult to decide because I like to be safe in my decisions, but I know that this one will have a significant effect on my future.
In the end, I suppose it all boils down to knowing what I want. I'm confident in the lifestyle I would like to experience when I am on my own, but everything in between is what is so confusing...